Firemind

Meh Halloween

I don’t get too excited about Halloween anymore. It’s not quite an inconvenience but it can be annoying.

I used to love ‘trick or treating’ as a kid and going to Halloween dances as a young adult. Eventually age and circumstances dulled my enthusiasm.

Looking back I can see the two points where I stopped both going out and supplying candy. The first point was fairly obvious but the latter was more subtle.

When I moved back to Victoria I went to the clubs with friends and partners. Getting dressed up on Halloween was fun and I tried to get time off of work. When I got into security getting time off got harder but sometimes it worked out.

When my partner and I split up I found it easier to avoid the clubs. I also didn’t like running into people I dealt with in my job too. I got tired of drunks and crowds and stayed away from them on my own time.

Years have passed and I still avoid the drunks and crowds - and thus most party events.

Giving out candy was a big thing for one of my partners. Some kids came to the door but we seemed to eat most of what we bought. When we split I moved into a place with a controlled entrance. That and working Halloween put a damper on supplying candy.

When I moved into my current place I thought I would get into the spirit again. The year I moved in I was still unpacking on Halloween. When kids came to the door I said I was sorry and had I just moved in. One of the kids was rude and I felt glad I didn’t have candy to give.

Over the years I found myself avoiding the time the kids went door to door. it started by “accident” and became a plan. Unlike the fundraisers and preachers the TOT-ing kids were an intrusion I could avoid.

So my Halloweens are pretty mellow. I may blog about it and get into online events but that’s about it.

Still Around

It’s time for me to start posting again. Nothing exciting is happening but my list of videos to post is getting too large. :)

Videos and (possibly commentary) include

• Some vids of songs I used to listen to and new ones.
• The 2009 Junior Eurovision Song Contest and several of the participants.
• Short films with a “young talent” theme.

Life And Death

My birthday was last week and it was odd for me. I planned on my usual quiet scene and that part worked out. I hadn’t planned on the emotional stress associated with internal and external events.

I found it difficult to get to sleep in the early hours of my birthday. Turning 49 wasn’t an issue but I was thinking about how different this bd was from my last. Last year I was recovering from emergency surgery and couldn’t sit to read or play computer games too long. The pain went away but the feeling of a slowed down life has stayed.

I was thinking about this and checked my email and found out one of my online friends had passed away. I found this hard and eventually found closure by writing a post in an old blog.